Realised yesterday when I went out with my friends to the pictures and to eat, that I find socialising incredibly difficult. I find having one or two friends around is okay, but as soon as you hit 3 other friends, I retreat back into silence and depression. I literally had nothing to say. And I found myself wishing I wasn’t in public. This makes me depressed. That I’m finding myself more comfortable being by myself. Or talking to people on the internet OH GOD I’M GOING TO BE LIKE THAT WOMAN IN SWANLEY WHO KILLED HER TWO DOGS AND NEGLECTED HER CHILDREN AND DIDNT SLEEP BECAUSE SHE WAS TOO BUSY ON HER INTERNET LIFE. shitshithsithsihtishihtiSHIT.